It was just another day in
the rest of my life. I don’t do winter and winter was still sternly
around, despite those promises that are exaggerations and lies whispered by daffodils
and jonquils and cherry blossoms and magnolia, flora-version of premature ejaculation.
They promise caress of warmth and deliver only frustration, a cold chill,
thwarted expectation. I have learned to ignore the false promise of those
blossoms. There’s a metaphor somewhere there. Thwarted promise, anyone?
There’s a lot of thwarted promises I’ve learned to ignore. It goes with greying hair, saggy bits
and lengthening shadows, perhaps. As aging Baby Boomers we can learn to forget
much that once lit up our world. The times that once were a-changing merely
morphed back, the m-m-my generation that hoped to die before it got old by and
large decided to cling tenaciously to life if it hadn’t OD’ed or choked on it its
own vomit. But not to surrender creature comforts.
Boomers who received their
free education ensured our successors had to pay, generated rigorous
structures and maintained institutions that protected our own bank vaults. When
younger generations X, Y, and Z with increasing passion tried to draw attention
to depleted ozones, dwindling resources, and the bitter discomfort of nights spent
under the stars with hungry children, then we were eloquent. We Boomers bleated empty promises and
retreated comfortably into our secure institutions or private hedonistic liberations.
We retreated, and left X, Y and Z outside in the bitterly cold nights that mock
the promises made by spring flowers and Baby Boomers. We left X, Y and Z
increasingly disillusioned with our edifices, sleeping outside our comfort zones
on bitterly cold nights, nights spent under the stars with their own hungry children, our mokopuna.
As it happened I stumbled across
a rally, a small public gathering drawing attention to the plight of homeless people.
There was passion, compassion, anger. There were a few politicians working
their version of the beat. There was rhetoric, and, as feisty local councilor Henare O'Keefe made clear, there was the ever-present risk that after the rhetoric and
the pakipaki there would be for many of us, a warm glow, a sense of achievement, and
a satisfied trudge home knowing that we had gathered to assuage our bleeding
hearts.
We.
Because I know I will, I
did, too. I heard the stories, felt deeply sad, spread my magnolia blossom of
promise and went home to my warm bed. As I always have, I preach to myself. I walked away, and the only times that
were a-changing were the times tick-tocking away to the next election when, if
our most vulnerable have not succumbed to the cold, a new government will form
with either blue or red hues, and someone else will drag a sleeping bag to
sparse hardly-shelter that is home beneath the
pier or a bridge or a tree or a
church.
Pier, where Napier homeless often sleep |
Oh, but not a church.
Because the gate-keepers, as Henare hinted in his impassioned korero, will ring
their hands and say tut tut and mouth a platitude or two and move the rough
sleepers on because, well you know, not nice, not clean.
Ah, the church! I have a
mate who wanted to implement some changes at a church. Wanted to make the
connections stronger between the church and the society it claims to care for.
They were met with a vast vomit of Canons (yup: that’s a fancy obscure
church-word for rules) that explained why new ideas could not be implemented.
Thou shalt not, because Canon 54 sub-clause 2 part a: ii says blah blah blah.
Homeless? Not welcome here, thanks. |
Remember Hemi Baxter’s Holy Spirit who squawked and
laid an egg? She’s doing it again. With
bitter tears. While chardonnay socialists and theological progressives write
papers and wring hands and re-arrange deckchairs and ask homeless people to
leave the porch please because, well you know, not nice. And besides, we paid
for that toilet paper that you might use if we don’t lock it away.
A homeless man named Henare O'Keefe
(yes, redoubtable, and reliable too,
because this man has put his life and resources where his mouth is), they all made
speeches from the heart. And a few blobs of rain fell, and I’m a bit of an ADHD
sort so my mind wandered from the public space where we were listening. The
grey mind-jelly wandered away. It wandered away from the small crowd, where
visible church representation was conspicuous by its absence (and those who
were there may have squirmed a little, as I did, as Henare delivered a truth or
two about vacuous ecclesiastical promises). It wander-oozed across the small
city block to where a large church that I once knew well stood, tall and proud
and near-empty (and cold, but not as cold as the empty space beneath a pier on
the water front). St Ozymandias, perhaps.
six hundred or so empty pews |
As this tired Baby Boomer mind wandered, and wondered
too at the invisibility of visible church presence at the rally, it entered
that adjacent near-empty church-building of St Ozymandias. It wondered how many
homeless could sleep in or beneath the 600 hundred or so usually empty pews,
with or without heaters. It wondered, not altogether tangentially, why
Generations X Y and Z can’t be bothered with echoing cold walls of that cubist
monolith, can’t be bothered with yet another colossal institution that exists it
seems to preserve itself.
My wandering mind realized too that those with theological
degrees, those called, set aside to follow the homeless Christ, those with
collars on back-to-front to be a (largely meaningless now) sign to the world, with
a passion for pressed robes, cultured enunciations, perfected ceremonies and oh
yes, Canons (remember Canons? remember Canon 54 sub-clause 2 part a: ii?), all
that and above all propriety, those who
are called, set-aside, licensed precisely to be the visible face of the church,
the human face of God, they were right at that moment ensconced in their
building, St Ozymandias.
They were safe there as the sound of musical magnificence,
crescendos of Haydn’s Creation soared
to the rafters, drowning out the faint echoes of the speeches of the street people
and their advocates, as Henare delivered a deserved serve and Major reminded us
that he didn’t enjoy the unwashed state he was in and 13 year old Jack with his
love for family and animals told how much it hurt to have no home. Safe there behind metre thick walls and heavy
wooden doors, safe in an edifice that ensures that only the vetted and nice and
clean and housed people may gain entry and hear the soaring harmonies of dead
white males.
Amidst the libretti and the recitativi faithful devotees of the counter-god Apollo, effete beautiful
god of music and aesthetics and order and dignity, nice god, good god, they were
content while Major and Henare and Jack and others told their poignant tale and
the rain began to fall and brought my wandering and wondering grey jelly back to
the present. The real God who is revealed in the homeless mendicant Jesus was
there, nearby, there at the sound shell of public speech, at that that cold public
space without metre thick walls (though a dangerous place to sleep because
police will soon move you on).
The suffering God, homeless Jesus-God, was
ignoring the fine concert and the dribbles of money that it would raise to facilitate,
under the Canons, the aesthetically pleasing work of the church. The real God who has “nowhere to lay his (or
her) head” and who is far closer to the generations that have turned their back
on monolithic institutions, the real God who understands only too well the skepticism
and anti-institutionalism of Gens X, Y, and Z, she was getting ready for
another night, homeless in the rain. The real God with nowhere to lay her head realized it probably wouldn’t be worthwhile, if the rain got heavy, to mooch
over to the big empty church of St Ozymandias for some shelter, because someone would cite a
Canon and ask her to have a shower and only then maybe come back on Sunday.
Nearby magnolia blossom and rain fell and washed away in the gutter.
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